Flight Paths

The hardest part of my relationship with this 36 year-old Singapore Airlines hostess is her work commitments. Last night she left on circuit that will take her to London, across the Atlantic to New York, to Tokyo via LA and back through Singapore. She'll be away twelve days in all. I will miss her terribly. While modern technology may keep us in frequent contact when she is away working, I still struggle without her sleeping beside me. I miss her smell and the sense of her presence. I miss they way she holds me to her bosom when I've had a bad day, her wordless reassurance makes me feel comfortable in a way I have never felt before. Most of all I miss the incredible sex we enjoy together.

When she goes away like this I wonder whether she contemplates the strength of our relationship. She tells me constantly that she misses me and can't wait to return to my loving arms, but I wonder whether sometimes she does think it is all a bit too difficult. It would be a lot easier for her to become sexually involved with one of the pilots she works with. It is well known that pilots are strong and confident lovers. They could organise to work the same routes and be able to spend their free time together in exotic locations. It's not hard to imagine them strolling hand-in-hand along the Seine, or having passionate intercourse in the Los Angeles Airport Hilton. They would understand each other's needs. The stresses and strains of the positions they hold. Theirs would be a bond formed from their mutual life experiences. A bond stronger and more intense than ours.

I do become quite concerned about this prospect while she is away. She has a ferocious sexual appetite, and as much as I love to believe in her faithfulness, I fear that she may not have the will power to quell the burning in her loins. It may only take a couple of drinks and the smooth charms of a man in uniform for her to put aside all that we have built together and submit to the erotic delights that airline pilots are known to be capable of providing.

I won't confront her about this. It's important she believes she has my trust. After all, this could just be the paranoia of man in the teething stages of his first adult relationship. My suspicions could be perceived as immaturity which might lead her to believe that I am not ready for such a substantial commitment. She may feel that I do not support her career and that I am attempting to undermine her status as an independent modern woman. It is paramount that I put these thoughts behind me now. It's essential that she has my trust. I want to prove myself to her. She's taken a significant risk in becoming involved with someone so young and inexperienced. I need to make it obvious that I am an exceptional life partner for her.